I Am At Choice

There is a quote that I like so much by Jim Rohn: “If you don’t like where you are, move. You are not a tree.” Seems simple, right? Just change whatever isn’t working for you. Do what you need to do to live your best life, the life of your dreams.

I know the truth of this. I know that I am at choice in my life. But, do you ever feel stuck? Do you ever feel like you’ve gone too far down a path to turn around now? Do you ever feel burdened by your “gifts” and training – and what you think you “should” be doing? Or by decisions you’ve made that you feel like you need to stick with them, even though you no longer would choose that if you had a choice? I’ve actually been in that place for a little over 20 years.

Between a combination of people telling me how “good” I was at healing work and massage therapy – that I had “magic hands” and a “healing aura” – and my sense of obligation that this was what I was “here to do” – I stayed in a career that … I’m not sure how to even put it. On the one hand, I felt honored to work with people and help them. On the other hand, I was filled with sort of a low-level dread at doing the work. I don’t know why. I’ve meditated and tried to tune into what was creating the resistance, but I could never get clear. I just knew that if a client canceled, I was happy – and I’m pretty sure that’s not how you’re supposed to feel if you want any success in your profession. Right?

So, the pandemic hit and I took my training and my abilities online. I offered distance Reiki, energy healing, and myofascial release coaching. I threw in some intuitive readings and Oracle card readings – because I think those are fun and that’s been a part of my life for a long time. Only, they don’t feel like as much fun to me when they are “work.” None of those things were my passion – something that would make me excited to wake up in the morning or keep me lit throughout the day with ideas and joy and passion and excitement.

My online business has been evolving over the past year. I changed the name a few months ago when I woke up one morning, inspired to do so, with the name coming to me in a dream. Hold Yourself Sacred. And yesterday, I changed my website significantly to reflect what I actually want to be creating. I took away everything that didn’t make me excited and happy. It doesn’t matter if I’m good at it. What does it serve anyone (especially me!) if I have any inner resistance to it? With Guidance, I expanded the section of what is my true calling, what I most want to bring to the world. I only kept what is a full YES! to me and to Life. YES! Yes, I would happily do this if I were making money at it or not. (I hope I make money because I need money to live on – but I would do it even if I had more money than I would ever need – this is what I was born to do!)

I created new business social media accounts, both because of my motivation to follow this dream of mine … and also because I was feeling challenged to prove a point. LOL (More on that another time – but I’d be so grateful if you’d follow me on Instagram and Twitter and Facebook – and like and share my posts!)

It doesn’t really matter the details for me of what I’m choosing (for now) as my path forward (but feel free to check out my newly improved website!). What matters is – I’m moving! I’m not stuck! And neither are you. I’m choosing what I want to be and do. I’m talking here about my profession – but this is about anything in your life or mine! Relationships. Education. Where you live. Travel. Anything you can think or dream of. What is holding you back? I think that a lot of the time, we are not nearly as stuck as we think we are – it’s just that change is scary. Also, we spend a lot of the time looking at walls and closed doors instead of seeing what options are actually available to us. Or worrying about what we’ll lose out on – because yes, some things and people may fall away when we make changes in our lives. For many of us, there can be quite a bit of fear in the unknown.

The funny thing is, when we even hold an intention of allowing things to shift a little for us – the Universe comes along with options and opportunities. And when we learn to be open to change and to allow ourselves to breathe through discomfort, we can create a whole new life for ourselves – and we can keep doing it, over and over again – being vibrantly alive in each moment. And we can rest when we need to, take a break when we need to. We don’t have to change. But if we see what we want … maybe we can start moving toward it. Tiny steps or big leaps. Just remind ourselves that we are NOT trees! We are not planted. We can move!

I’m having all kinds of big changes in my life right now. I’m about to move cross country (again – I did that a little over two years ago). I’m so excited! I’m looking for a new home. I’m moving without even knowing (yet) where I’m going to land! I am trusting Life to lead me and provide for me. I am feeling in alignment with my good. I am enjoying these last few days here, where I am, with dear friends. I’m looking forward to seeing the friends I will visit with on my way home. And I’m super excited to see where my path is leading me! I don’t know much about what the future holds, honestly, but I do know this: I am not a tree!

Published by freekat2

I'm choosing as much as I can to be curious rather than afraid, to be open and willing to learn, to express myself as authentically and vulnerably as I can manage in any given moment, and to enjoy this journey of life.

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